Showing posts from February, 2017


Have you ever experience people telling you things like, “ your so good at that” or “ That’s a gift.? I have heard it many of times. My husband reminds me often that I am talented or gifted but for whatever reason I just don’t see it. I don’t know if it was because I wasn’t exposed to a lot of other things that could help build my confidence or if it came out of being picked on all the time… but I just don’t believe in myself the way others do and the way God does. I’ve always wanted to accomplish whatever I put my mind to but I never feel satisfied with what I do. I’m told I’m a great braider but when I look at my work it’s always it could be better. The one thing I struggle with the most is my music. I’m always so proud of something I wrote and sung but as soon as I hear a play back I right away have negative thoughts like, you don’t sound great or no one will listen, or it’s not better than such and such or things like why are you even trying, you suck type stuff. I don’t have very…

In Love

Being in love is hard work. Believe when I say , 7 years and two kids later, being in love is HARD WORK, but EXTREMELY REWARDING! You know that phase when you’re in a relationship and you’re doing everything in your power to stay looking fly and just showing them all the best sides of you? It’s very similar to the honeymoon phase of marriage. You see in the honeymoon phase it’s all you are my world, there is no one more perfect than this person … right… until you have to deal with real problems. Let’s be honest a lot of us haven’t really seen what healthy relationships should look like. We have this made-up idea based on movies, t.v. shows and ads. You see everything around us tells us that sex is love and that your outer appearance is the only thing that will keep the one you love around. The world around us tells us to quite on the relationship when things are going exactly how you want them and to never really get to close to a person because you will only get hurt.Being in love is…

Being a mom!

Team Jenkins enjoy the snow and sledding!
So being a mom has a lot of beautiful moments and also have a ton of hard ones! I feel like being a mom is supposed to challenge us in areas in which others can’t. For me personally I love youth! I love infants, elementary age kids and high school. Anyone that know me knows I can’t stand middle school youth and the toddler preschool age LOL. So obviously, those ages  can’t be skipped LOL. So, I had to learn how to teach to their “know it all” attitudes and not doing what I asked them the first time. We were all raised differently but I know for me telling my parents I’m not would get you pooped in your mouth LOL. With the way society is now popping your kid could get child protective service called on you, which I believe is sad because sometimes our kids need that good old fashion “whopping” aka spanking, just to clarify a whopping is not getting beaten a beaten is getting beaten, which I n…

Not my Hair!!!

I have an autoimmune disease called Alopecia areata that went into activity after my second child! When you have an autoimmune disease, your immune system attacks your own body. With alopecia areata, it’s the hair follicles that are attacked. This causes the hair to come out, often in clumps the size and shape of a quarter. The amount of hair loss is different in everyone. Some people lose it only in a few spots. Others lose a lot. I experienced losing hair with both pregnancies but with my first child all of my hair grew back. My daughter totally took over my body and it has never been the same since. I went to a doctor and was told that I have alopecia areata but first was told by my cosmetologist. So now my hair falls out and grows back. I’ve noticed for the most part it’s when I’m dealing with high levels of stress is when it’s at it’s worst. Now when my hair falls out it does it in different places and be bald, baby butt smooth bald! So of course, I start freaking out when it jus…