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anx·i·e·ty aNGˈzīədē/ a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome….. I’ve pretty much had this issue my whole life! One that I can honestly say I’m not of ashamed of. I use to go back and forth between the whole concept of, “if you believe hard enough He(God) will fix the problem” and “well if you say you have anxiety or depression than your speaking it into existence”. Here’s the thing though…… no one can really move forward or overcome a obstacle like this if they’re not allowed to be human and actually feel and really try to work through with what they struggle with and why. I do believe that God can heal but He doesn’t always. I don’t believe that He wants to just fix everything for us so that we can live this happy fairy tale fantasy for the rest of our lives. Depression seems to have a strong hold in my family. I’m not ashamed to say that I go through seasons of it. I’m also pretty sure anxiety runs...

Hey guys!!! I know it’s been a pretty long time since I’ve last blogged! There has been a TON of changes since I’ve lasted blogged! So, for starters my family and I moved back to Minnesota from Nebraska, into a what looked like a really nice apartment that had issues as soon as we moved in!!!!!!!! I originally had a great paying job with a school district but had to quit like two weeks in due to childcare issues…. which sucks since the cost of living is so high! Then I really started to struggle with the calling on my life! For the longest of time I just knew what I suppose to do in life. Then after a big life event a couple years ago, all that changed. With all of that change God gave me a vision that showed me that my experience is going to help others, although I may not see it right away. That was 3 years ago. I can honestly say now I can see it but now am very eager to start the vision. Since coming back I have had to deal with emotional things that are connected with why we left...

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo sorry about neglecting you all for the past month!!!! I have had a lot of frustrating things happen to me in the past month! Sometimes when you think you can trust people and work as a team with people, you realize that even those people that seemed trustworthy can fail you. Everyone that knows me knows my heart is so passionate about youth, but sometimes everyone on your team isn't and that can make establishing a healthy relationship very hard. Once again I have learned that you can't trust everyone but this time I walk away without anger but with grace, pride and gratefulness. I have learned the kind of parent I want to be in my own kids lives and I have learned so much from the kids that God had given us temporarily. I have learned that my husband and I can overcome anything together and I have learned how to cook for more than 12 people and cheaply!!! I have learned to show grace through difficult times and have continue...

Lately I have been feeling weary. Before you know it, the weariness turns and to resentment, bitterness and eventually hate. I have spent my whole life pouring out love into others and really trying to help them see the potential that they have and show through my actions that love does still exist. Sometimes a person can be exposed to so much pain and hate that they don’t even recognize what real love looks like because of people using it so wrong. Any how I have gotten to the state of feeling weary and discontinuing my work in youth care. I feel as though God is preparing me for something so much bigger than what I am currently doing. I have been working with teenagers since I was a teen myself and has enjoyed even the ugliest moments of it. Now I feel it is time to move on to something different. I’m at a different place in my life. I feel like working with people will always be my thing. God has given different gifts and a new vision, one that I plan on following. I may ...

Have you ever experience people telling you things like, “ your so good at that” or “ That’s a gift.? I have heard it many of times. My husband reminds me often that I am talented or gifted but for whatever reason I just don’t see it. I don’t know if it was because I wasn’t exposed to a lot of other things that could help build my confidence or if it came out of being picked on all the time… but I just don’t believe in myself the way others do and the way God does. I’ve always wanted to accomplish whatever I put my mind to but I never feel satisfied with what I do. I’m told I’m a great braider but when I look at my work it’s always it could be better. The one thing I struggle with the most is my music. I’m always so proud of something I wrote and sung but as soon as I hear a play back I right away have negative thoughts like, you don’t sound great or no one will listen, or it’s not better than such and such or things like why are you even trying, you suck type stuff.   I don’t ha...